intermission

It's been a long time...and it's become painfully obvious that I'm having trouble keeping my ducks in a row.  Why?  I don't know, time is escaping me somehow.  Maybe it's that the preschooler is, excuse me, Cinderella...(she demands to only be called Cinderella now) is keeping me super busy.  Or maybe it's that I've got a million things going on between work and trying to decorate our new house.  Or maybe, just maybe it's that I've got my head in the clouds daydreaming about something I want to do.  Something that is scary and exciting at the same time.  Of course I've done nothing to make this little dream of mine come to fruition but it's nice daydreaming about it nonetheless.  What is it, you ask?  I have this little dream of opening a southern style Anthropologie.  Think same kind of coolness but pair that with Imogene + Willie type flair.  I want a store that sells cast iron frying pans, jeans, cool shirts, Redwings, and a million other "picked" items...an updated general store of sorts.  Little bands on Friday nights, a shop dog and ice cold glass bottled coca cola to boot.  These are the things that keep me up at night.  Will it ever happen?  Who knows.  All I know is that I've always been nostalgic about the past...about playing in the front yard, about digging in the dirt, riding in my grandfather's truck, going through the "junk drawer" about a million times even though I knew every single item in there by heart.  These are the things that shaped me and these are the things that are missing in our world today.  Our kids (mine included) aren't playing in the yard.  They don't know about junk drawers or dirt under their nails or being hosed off or eating bacon out of an iron skillet.  They don't know what it's like to get stuff that's made in the USA...made with heart.  I want to give that to my child.  Give her a sense of nostalgia for something other than a Nook tablet or Nintendo DSi.  It's complicated and I know I'm rambling but my point in all of this is that I'm going to take a break from blogging for a bit to try to figure this whole thing out.  Please stay tuned.  I will definitely be back but I just need a minute to figure out if the cloud really does have a silver lining after all...